The tail-end of an era...2018
10/2/18
Chaotic, symbolic, methodic times
Upside down and backwards like this book of rhymes
Matters of the heart shouldn't be a crime
Yet all falls apart after one night
Can't cry, not sad, silence unwinds
Crazy American wants to have a good time
She called me "wild with respect"
She loved my vibe
All new friends and I might just survive
Still not homesick all things aside
I can make it anywhere
find someone new to pull my hair
Hate to leave anything unfinished
but I'll skip the bullshit
Sorry I tried -
Hope they're able to fix your ride
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Later that day:
Close your eyes, make a wish
Pretty little liar, I'm not convinced
You need space, fine, I'll simply replace
12 hours later I got me a new boo
and still then you call with your jealousy
Say you can't deal with me so why
you on my phone? There's plenty
of others I can pay for and bone.
Shit - I'm stressing YOU out?
I'm a long way from home
But you know what they say,
"When in Rome..." Or when in the Dam
Anything goes, just not according to plan
You got 5 on it?? LOL don't rely on it
acting all sly on it, always the victim
more like you got "Why???" on it.
Take control of your life cuz
it's YOU why you're miserable
wallowing in your problems, although considerable
You're tormenting yourself and it's despicable.
But stay mad, stay sad, angry and whatever
Keep on depriving yourself of lives pleasures.
Shit only gonna get worse if you let em
Suck it up son, experiences can't be measured
by cars, money or material things
Happiness can't be bought so fuck
your anxiety!
You gotta do more than just say it
You gotta do more to prove it
Sometimes gotta take a chance
and simply pursue it.
All doesn't always work in your favor
So chuck em the deuces, tell em "later"
Laugh at your haters
Get your focus back on the paper
Don't need a man to do it
Don't need to hold your hand to prove it
Fuck up and you lose it -
but you wanna, you wanna....
it's 4AM let me know, if you wanna
if you wanna....